I have been slacking off lately here at work. I really didn’t know what was happening to me for these past 2 weeks, I was practically doing nothing for days. I mean I am pretending to work and I do accomplish some things but I finish them in an awfully a lot of time. A task that I could do for like 20 minutes would take me a whole day. And I would sometimes just look at the monitor and do nothing. I was contemplating what was happening to me and yet I couldn’t think of any reason. This morning, the answer came right to me. I was reminiscing about my college days and my first year here at work, I used to love doing these things. I would stay up all night just to finish something I have started. I loved the feeling of hitting Ctrl+F5 for last time because I have completed my work. I loved the challenges where I would be caught talking to myself just so because I need to figure out what’s wrong with code. In short, I used to love what I do.
Now I know what happened. I was blinded by the comfort of my job for I came to realize that even without giving my best, I was still getting paid. I could extend deadlines all I want and still be the hero when I finish my codes. I was starting to settle for a mediocre quality of my work. It was clear that this was the cause of my slacking off. I need to pull myself together. I need to feel again the gratification of debugging and compiling my work. And I will be starting this today. I have a deadline tomorrow and I need this to be done.
Now all I have to do is download the chants of Gregorian and it will all be good.