Laidback Nerd

Reflection

Here I am lying in bed listening to the squeak of the electric fan accompanied by the sound of the rain dropping on our roof. I feel sleepy and yet I can’t seem to doze off, must be the ganja I smoked earlier. I never had this silence for a while and this gave me the chance to think and reflect about the things happening in my life. A lot is going through my mind right now and I sort of think that I am having a mid-life crisis.

I recently submitted my letter of resignation for the company I worked for. The main reason is that I really don’t enjoy now what I am doing, then there are other factors like the incompetence of your co-workers or the fact that some of them talk shit behind my back. People with so little room for thinking are not allowed to become superiors in my opinion. I used to love what I was doing at work. Every day, I look forward to coming to work back then. I look forward to learning new things and discovering solutions to the problems that lay. And then after a couple of years, things started to get dull, work became monotonous and soon I realized that career growth was very slow. And since my original plan was to stay there for 5 years and last September I have achieved that goal, I think that it is time for me to move on.

My only concern now is whether I think I made the right choice or not. With my current job, we could somehow get by and manage to save a little. There’s a sense of financial security… somehow. What I am afraid of now is that I have no plans whatsoever after I resign. I want to take a break first before I find another job. I want a new line of work. I want to experience something new, something different. Then I found this car for sale online and it made me want to buy the car, the only solution I can think of is to sell my Nouvo and then get a 2-year loan from our cooperative. If I get that loan though, it would mean I have to extend my stay for 2 years. So I really need to think about whether I really like the car or not, because if I really want the car, I will convince myself that 2 years is not that long. But then I again, I think couldn’t even last a month at my work. See my dilemma?

The reason that I really can’t stay long now at my job is that our department is falling apart. Every one of us has a fault and people are scared enough to not face the problem or even bother to know what is wrong. I got a boss that is kind and understanding, sometimes too much for the departments good. Sometimes we need a boss that would reprimand our mistakes right? Then there’s this guy who has got nothing else to do but put blame on all the people that he can lay his sight on! Every time you hear his voice, you can just hear that he is blaming some other guy. Or rather he has a wise-ass comment about every other person in the department. An advice I could give him is that, if he has nothing good to say, better shut up. Who needs a superior that doesn’t give compliments to his guys? And then there’s this person who has a great inferiority complex who thinks that he is always right and that he could practically do what he pleases. He is never wrong. And for the rest, including me, we are just plain lazy! We slack off because we can. Who would want to work for such a department?

I just hope things will turn out good with my decision of leaving the company. I want to find a job where I don’t feel like I am doing a job but rather doing something I really like and getting paid for it.

Random Thought: Ame

I am thinking I wanted to update my blog but had no specific topic in mind. I just wanted to write so I am writing about the first thing that came into my mind prior to creating a new entry. And it is about the rain (ame), I like the rain. It makes me feel relaxed and my mood can be easily swayed. I heard there’s a typhoon coming so the rain just keep on pouring since this morning. I really don’t mind getting wet in the rain, though it sucks sometimes especially when you are all dressed up. But generally, I love it when it rains, maybe because of my birth sign (Aquarius). I feel all cuddly and romantic when it rains.

Oh and if you are wondering why is my entry titled “Ame”, it is japanese for rain. I am still trying to learn Nihongo and I hope someday I’ll be good at it so that I won’t have to wait for subbed versions of the JDorama’s I am watching ^_^

Also,  I have finished the anime “The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya” and it was really good! Didn’t expect the story to be like that  but it was good. I also finished watching “My Boss, My Hero” and it was funny and you can learn some things about life from it. And lastly, I watched (finally) the movie “The Notebook” and I must say I was quite disappointed because it was not as I expected :[ I think I overestimated the movie based on the reviews and reactions of my friends.

A Picture Is Worth A Thousand Words

What if you got a picture with a quote included in it? How many words would it be worth? Take a look.  

Wishlist

Since Christmas is getting near and also my birthday comes a month after it, I think I will create a wishlist so that if ever any of you guys would be generous enough to send me any of the items I am going to enumerate, I would be very very grateful! *big smile*

And so without further ado, here is the list:

• A DSLR Camera
• LED TV
• SE w910i
• Digital Projector
• Apple iMac 24″
• Alienware M17x

Well that’s it for now, maybe I’ll update the list later.

“Ang hirap mag-isip ng wishlist!”

Movie: Love Story (1970)

“Love means never having to say you’re sorry”

I’ve first seen this movie back in 1999, and though I didn’t see it completely, I really liked it.  This film was based on a novel by Erich Segal. This is a story about a rich man in college meeting an ordinary girl with a great personality. The two university students crossed paths and then soon enters a relationship. Over time they decided to marry but as the man’s father heard of this, he threatens his son to disinherit him leaving the couple to start all over. As the movie progresses, you can see that their love for one another stands firm through their hardships.

Things began to be complicated when the couple tried to have a child only to discover that the girl is sick. The man goes to his father to ask for some help but being proud and mad at his son, he assumes that his son only wants money for trivial things and did not lend any help. Soon after, the girl dies and leaves her husband in great pain. The man’s father hears the bad news but there was nothing he could do anymore but to apologize to his son. The man forgives his father for he knows that his wife would be happy for him if he did.

This is such a heartbreaking movie *sob*

“What can you say about a twenty-five year old girl who died? That she was beautiful and brilliant. That she loved Mozart and Bach. The Beatles. And me.”

Old Movies

Lately I have been inclined to watching old movies, I really don’t know why but I do like watching them. You can really see how good movies were made back then especially those created before colors were used in films. These kinds of movies make you focus on the acting and delivery rather than the effects in a movie. And focusing on the actors makes you appreciate more the acting rather than the settings. It kinda gives you the feeling of watching a play on a theater where lighting and acting play an important role. On the next posts, I will be sharing you the movies I have seen so far.

Reminscing

It’s about time I write something about what’s happening for the past weeks. A couple of weeks ago, I uploaded scanned photos of ours during our elementary years. I have uploaded them on Facebook and then started tagging my friends. Soon enough, a number of tags have emerged from the photos among with the comments. And then we started chatting using the comment boxes provided by facebook; one thing led to another and so they started asking for YM ID’s and then they held YM conferences over time. Being the jealous kid that I am, I needed to find a way to communicate with them because I have no YM at the office, and walla! I then created a subdomain from the Alumni Website for the sole purpose of making a chatroom for us. And then people have become resident “tambays” on the room and then began all the reminiscing and the catching up of lost time.

And so was born the first get-together. Last July 18, 2009, we met with one another for a small dinner gathering and then ended up laughing and giggling all through the night. It seemed that time did not hinder the camaraderie between us as though we didn’t see each other for a long time. Same old wisecracks, same old quirkiness but all in a new phase in life. The night was filled with fun and laughter that it was kind of hard ending it.

And then there was the second gathering held last July 25, 2009. Some were not able to make it but others have joined the group as well. We held it here are our house and we had a blast spending time here. New members were discovered since they also studied at Ecumenical School at one point in their life. It was really fun! Talking about the past and then reminiscing about the good old times. During this gathering, some also attended online for they can’t be physically here. The night was a blast.

We are planning on having a big reunion this December so we are all inviting you guys to please join the fun!

Also there is one brewing this Friday and hopefully more can come this time :]